February 8, 2014
Just when I think I am doing great, getting over things, finally really moving on, I see Garth Brooks performing The Dance and All My Friends on the Jay Leno show. Manuel loved GarthBrooks. We never got the chance to see him. He was in Alb a long time ago, but we already had tickets to a Dallas game. We should have chose Garth.
I have not listened to his cd's in a really long time, probably since Manuel. Just made me sad. I am going to listen to it again. I love Garth! And one for my bucket list. I am going to see him in concert, for Manuel and me.
I have had a wonderful weekend with Craig. He just makes me feel appreciated, safe, sexy, fun. All the things I haven't felt in a long time. He is exhausted. Poor Guy. I will let him rest, take care of him. Tomorrow is another day. I hope he does not go home early. We will see.
February. Wow. This year is just flying by. Manuel is playing Rugby, Meg and Ruben are wanting to start a family and buy new furniture, ( a big deal for a young couple), I think my students are learning math, I think!, and I am doing great.
I have decided that I look cooking again because it fills the time, gives me something to do most evenings, and always an excuse for a nice glass of wine!
Meg, Shandra and Rheanna are coming next weekend. Can't wait! It will be nice to see all of them. Meg is coming a day early, so we will have some time just the two of us, cooking a great dinner and having some wine, and enjoying my beautiful daughter!
Now I need another weekend with Manuel. Sounds like I won't have one for awhile. He is busy with Rugby on the weekends.
Till next time. .......
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February 4, 2014
I woke up this morning to snow. Waited a bit to get in the shower, and there it came! The two hour delay phone call! I love 2 hour delays. They are unexpected, wonderful slow mornings. Started some laundry, making a bacon/avocado omelet for breakfast, time to blog, lay in bed enjoying my coffee, listening to Matchbox 20(craig suggested that) and texting with Craig and Meg, and putting together a grocery list. That's a lot for a slow morning, but it is all at my pace. Slow and easy today.
Wow, February already. January flew by. Before I know it, school will be out, summer will be here. and who knows what will happen then.
I think I need to be making some plans for the summer, but things are happening. I wanted to get a job bar tending or waitressing, but if I am still going to Eunice on the weekends or having company here, I don't want to work the weekends. I would like to find another place to live. So moving is definitely on my agenda! Maybe a trip to Montana with Dora. 50th birthday party for JoAnne. The Chancellor graduation/retirement party.
And continuing this new romance. When I moved to Ruidoso, I decided I was going to open myself up to opportunities and create some as well. So, I let Jo Ann set me up with a friend. That was nice, fun, but not what I wanted. No spark. Set up profiles on match.com and Eharmony. Actually met someone. We had a lot in common, had fun, but timing is everything. He had personal stuff going on, I believe. Anyway, that faded away.
At thanksgiving, one of Susan's friends was here visiting. She has an older brother that I knew in high school. I was asking about him, told her I thought I would give him a call, just catch up with him.
So I called, he agreed to meet me for drinks. The next night he came with me to a Christmas party, and Sunday we had lunch before I came home. There was a spark, we had fun, and I think he has texted me everyday since then. January 1, I went back to Eunice to see him again. Definitely some chemistry this time.
It is so weird. I know right away if there is something there or if there is no point in continueing to see someone. I realize that time makes a difference, but it seems like a waste of time if there is no spark to get the fire started.
Well the fire is started. We have seen each other every weekend since then, except one. He is not what I expected to be dating, but apparently what I needed. We talk about any and everything, I go to work with him when I am in Eunice, we have common friends, friends I have not seen in years. It is comfortable, easy, and very enjoyable.......See where it goes. Just enjoying him and I think he is enjoying me. Keena asked me this weekend, "What are you going to do with him?" Not sure what she meant by that. I told her we are having fun. And that's all we need for now.
One more thing, one of the things I like most about this new "friendship" is that it is just about Craig and I. Has nothing to do with the kids, the Sandovals, my past life. It is just about me. I feel very appreciated, safe, and I love all this attention he gives me. I realize it is weird to mention the Sandovals, but they are an incredible family, and everyone wants to be around them, with lots of social events going on. I love them dearly, but I need a life without them. My own life. I will always cherish them and the memories, but this new life finally feels really good. And here I am getting tears, guess it is finally time to let go. But never, never forget. Manuel is my soul mate, I will always love him. But I can love again. And he would want me to. I don't know if this is the time or the person, but now I know it is ok. It's ok for me to take care of me, and do what I want and need. It is my time now.
Wow, this turned into quite a self therapy session, tears and all.
Well this was a blog all about me, wasn't it? Next time, I won't be so selfish.
I woke up this morning to snow. Waited a bit to get in the shower, and there it came! The two hour delay phone call! I love 2 hour delays. They are unexpected, wonderful slow mornings. Started some laundry, making a bacon/avocado omelet for breakfast, time to blog, lay in bed enjoying my coffee, listening to Matchbox 20(craig suggested that) and texting with Craig and Meg, and putting together a grocery list. That's a lot for a slow morning, but it is all at my pace. Slow and easy today.
Wow, February already. January flew by. Before I know it, school will be out, summer will be here. and who knows what will happen then.
I think I need to be making some plans for the summer, but things are happening. I wanted to get a job bar tending or waitressing, but if I am still going to Eunice on the weekends or having company here, I don't want to work the weekends. I would like to find another place to live. So moving is definitely on my agenda! Maybe a trip to Montana with Dora. 50th birthday party for JoAnne. The Chancellor graduation/retirement party.
And continuing this new romance. When I moved to Ruidoso, I decided I was going to open myself up to opportunities and create some as well. So, I let Jo Ann set me up with a friend. That was nice, fun, but not what I wanted. No spark. Set up profiles on match.com and Eharmony. Actually met someone. We had a lot in common, had fun, but timing is everything. He had personal stuff going on, I believe. Anyway, that faded away.
At thanksgiving, one of Susan's friends was here visiting. She has an older brother that I knew in high school. I was asking about him, told her I thought I would give him a call, just catch up with him.
So I called, he agreed to meet me for drinks. The next night he came with me to a Christmas party, and Sunday we had lunch before I came home. There was a spark, we had fun, and I think he has texted me everyday since then. January 1, I went back to Eunice to see him again. Definitely some chemistry this time.
It is so weird. I know right away if there is something there or if there is no point in continueing to see someone. I realize that time makes a difference, but it seems like a waste of time if there is no spark to get the fire started.
Well the fire is started. We have seen each other every weekend since then, except one. He is not what I expected to be dating, but apparently what I needed. We talk about any and everything, I go to work with him when I am in Eunice, we have common friends, friends I have not seen in years. It is comfortable, easy, and very enjoyable.......See where it goes. Just enjoying him and I think he is enjoying me. Keena asked me this weekend, "What are you going to do with him?" Not sure what she meant by that. I told her we are having fun. And that's all we need for now.
One more thing, one of the things I like most about this new "friendship" is that it is just about Craig and I. Has nothing to do with the kids, the Sandovals, my past life. It is just about me. I feel very appreciated, safe, and I love all this attention he gives me. I realize it is weird to mention the Sandovals, but they are an incredible family, and everyone wants to be around them, with lots of social events going on. I love them dearly, but I need a life without them. My own life. I will always cherish them and the memories, but this new life finally feels really good. And here I am getting tears, guess it is finally time to let go. But never, never forget. Manuel is my soul mate, I will always love him. But I can love again. And he would want me to. I don't know if this is the time or the person, but now I know it is ok. It's ok for me to take care of me, and do what I want and need. It is my time now.
Wow, this turned into quite a self therapy session, tears and all.
Well this was a blog all about me, wasn't it? Next time, I won't be so selfish.
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